Letting Go

It’s definitely been awhile since I’ve felt led to post anything on the blog, but today God has really put it on my heart to share this story. This morning I woke up suddenly with a pit feeling in my stomach. I had a very vivid flashback of where i was on this day exactly a year ago. I was riding in the ambulance with Aaron as we made our journey from Miami to Hospice. We both knew that this trip home from Miami was very different than all of the other trips we had made. However, we did not know that we were about to experience the most God centered, faith filled week of our lives. That week we were in Hospice is a week that I will never forget. It is very hard to explain in a short blog post all that happened that week, but there is one story in particular that I feel God wants me to share. We had literally just got settled in the room when we were told that we had to meet with one of the counselors there. I remember so vividly Aaron was sitting up in a chair and I was sitting on the bed when she came in. She was there to make sure that we understood why he was there and what it meant to focus on quality of life over quantity of life. She began to ask us a series of medical questions and then she began to focus on the “after life” and what that meant to us. She asked us how we felt and we said that we felt peace and that we were not afraid of death because we knew where he was going and who he was going to be with. She then asked us how we felt about him having to leave Noraa and I and we quickly said that we were both extremely sad and we can’t even explain how much we will miss each other, but that we trusted God to take care of us, the same God who we have trusted as a family throughout this entire journey. She was speechless and her eyes filled up with tears. She said that she had never met such a young couple with such a strong faith and assurance that everything was going to be ok even in the midst of what was about to happen. God’s presence completely filled our room and we all could feel it. This does not mean that we didn’t have our battles with fears and doubts, but in that moment we were overcome with confident hope! I’m sharing this story, not to give any credit to us, but to give all of the credit and glory to our God! This moment was such an amazing example of how God really can equip ANYONE in any situation if you trust Him enough to let go of all of your fears. He will give you what you need and with His strength you can do unbelievable things for His kingdom, especially things that you never imagined you could do. I hope that this story encourages someone today who may be in the midst of a journey they never thought they would take or have the courage to endure. He is able if we just let go. * In the next week, I will also post an update on how I’ve been doing this past year as well as my sweet angel, Noraa! She is getting so big and certainly keeping me very busy! Love ~ Suzanne and Noraa